back on the road again...

Monday, February 26, 2007

omg im so scared. the release of alevels results is like a ticking time bomb to me. 4 more days then it'll explode. gosh. so worried..i know there's not point worrying cuz nothing can change the outcome now. but i still cant help it. i only pray and hope that my mum will be understanding and calm enough if i happen to do badly. of course i hope i do well. i hate to feel the fear of going home with bad results. i really hope it doesnt happen. that's the worst. dragging my feet reluctantly, not wanting to go home but yet i still have to, heart thudding with fear and cold sweaty sweaty palms tucked in my pockets, thinking of how to salvage the situation and explain to my mum. most papers feel hard to me. i think im so screwed. help..!

i went to highlight my hair.the highlights turned out very uneven. the back and side parts of my hair seems slightly highlighted only while my fringe highlights are super blonde and obvious. i had to buy a dark brown dye and darken that part. now it looks so much better. so much for cheap highlights near my place. but i think it cld also be bc my hair is already dyed before by myself, and thus my hair shade is very uneven to start off with.

9:08 PM

Saturday, February 24, 2007

it feels good to have my paycheck. well, part of my paycheck. most importantly, i can eat whatever i want to, and stil able to shop. instead of always having to scrimp and save on food. yea i've been shopping recently. this week, i bought a dress, a couple of lingerie and a pair of wedges. the wedges was a steal from bugis at $5. it's really nice. matt gold base with matt gold and silver straps. how nice. replaced my broken shaver too. dont think i'll shop anymore because i cant even think of what to buy anymore. i'll save money, so that before i enter uni, i can buy myself a big, durable bag. it's going to cost me abit i know. but it would be an investment.

talking about uni, A level results should be out this coming friday. im a nervous wreck, crying all of a sudden, cold sweat and all those nervous reactions. my brother said it's a good sign that the papers that i find hard, the general student population feels the same. cause this way, the papers will definitely be moderated.

two people will be leaving this monday, jade for aussie for studies and eddie for china for attachment prog. bon voyage. take care!

10:24 PM

Thursday, February 15, 2007

celebrated valentine's day yesterday =) glad i could celebrate it though it takes lying to parents and such. it's zac and my first valentine's day together. that's because last year he had remedial after school on Vday for failing his exams >=( talking about school, i missed the festivities in school during vday. it's like an important day in acjc. decorations everywhere, no matter who you are, how loner u are at sch, u'll still get something from someone. how nice.
anyway, it started with a nice surprise yesterday evening after work. zac waited for me outside my work place with flowers. i almost didnt see him and walked right past him. well then we went to eat at sakae sushi at westmall, which is near both our work place. we wanted other places but we reserved too late so that's the only place we managed to reserve a table. there were looooong queues outside all the restaurants. and many gloomy faces seen. haha. made me so thankful that we managed to reserve a table, no matter where.
i love you baby! thanks for the flowers =) tell ur parents soon about me! so u can use the mug i gave you. it's nice right? has a lid too. keep ur drinks warm. haha.

"Do it, baby, do it
On the beach
Do it, baby, do it
Down the street
Do it, baby, do it
You and me
We're gonna do what they call the french kissing

Give it, baby, give it
In the car
Take it, baby, take it
Wherever you are
Give it, baby, give it
Go too far
We're gonna do what they call the french kissing

All the people try to reach us
All the preachers try to teach us
They will never find the features
That make our love live eternally

You and me we live forever
Breakin' rules but stay together
So i miss your kiss and tell you this

Do it, baby, do it
On the beach
Do it, baby, do it
Down the street
Do it, baby, do it
You and me
We're gonna do what they call the french kissing

Give it, baby, give it
In the car
Take it, baby, take it
Wherever you are
Give it, baby, give it
Go too far
We're gonna do what they call the french kissing"
Sarah Conner - French Kissing

9:57 PM

Sunday, February 04, 2007

so busy nowadays. working 5 days a week. i do miss waking up at 12noon everyday.but the pay from the job, though not high, keeps me going.it's so much more than what my parents wld give me. i wondered how i survived school. 5 or 6 hrs of sleep everyday. i guess it's the friends n people in sch that makes me alot less sleepy. i love school and i miss school so much. but im not those types who took school for granted and then only when they graduate,they realise how much better school is compared to working life. i ALWAYS loved school since Day 1 in pri 1. i loved being around my friends everyday. it's something that cannot be replaced. now at my work place, a tuition centre, i hardly have any colleagues. it's lonely and boring most times, working independently for 8hrs. i miss school so much that i really really wished i was back in school. i hope my alvl results will be good and i can get into uni, and back to schooling life.
working really sucks. it takes away from my social life, working out time and practising the violin. cause im out working 5 days a week, the other 2 days, my mum wld expect me to stay home n rest. then how am i going to hangout at all? =( haiz. i cant wait for my pay and shop till i drop.

1:16 AM