back on the road again...

Monday, December 19, 2005

so many things happened in just 3 days. it's a miracle that i didnt kill myslef. shed so much tears. heart torn. then mended. before it completely healed, the stitches have been torn off brutally. 3 days back, i fought with my bf abt something. sensitive issue. cant put it here.
ystd, i received an sms frm him. "baby. missed you. why dont you come? what do u want for xmas dear? =)" sounds really sweet. problem is, that sms is not for me. it's for another girl. childhood friend, he says. wait. i must do this--> roll my eyes. now im rolling my eyes in sacarsm but last night, i was crying my eyes out. he flirts but he doesnt mean it. he doesnt even know it's flirting. naive. tsk.

okay. the blog is meant to be really long. but im sick of rambling. i turned to Him and He has lead me the way.
Trust in e Lord with all ur heart and lean not on ur own understanding.In ur all ways,acknowledge Him and He shall direct ur paths. --Proverbs 3:5,6
im comforted. Thank u Lord. im surrendering the whole problem to you cause i trust that everything will be fine.

oh oh. but. stop saying that u're hurt! hurt cause i dont trust u. how to trust u if u sent another girl this sort of sms. i must be really really open minded to forget abt all this. it's just too farfetched. any normal person will react the way i did. who can dismiss that ultra affectionate sms? frm my own bf to another girl? so i definitely did not over react this time. didnt even yell at u.

11:33 AM