back on the road again...

Sunday, October 18, 2009

I don't know what's wrong with me ever since I entered uni. I've lost the motivation to study hard. Since year 1, I've been just studying last before a test or exam. For the rest of the days, I'll just slack around, going out, watching dramas and shopping. I also leave my lab reports till the last minute to do. I've just lost the drive. I hate my results, but I just don't feel like doing anything about it. My only theory is that I got so sick of studying already. Since kindergarten or primary one, my monster mum has been pushing me, forcing me, stressing me to study, and demanding all the good grades. Now that she stopped doing it, I just want a breather from the past 12 years of stress. And because of uni, I cannot take this breather. I resent having to work my ass off to get decent grades. My course is seriously full of over-zealous muggers who have no life but study. The competition is insane. It scares me just to think how much other people are study. I shudder at the mere thought of myself studying just half as hard. Yikes. Hate studying. And for once in my life, I'm not doing well in school.

2:33 PM